I am a feminist writer and creative, consultant, facilitator, theorist, and researcher, making sense of violence’s infinite faces and forms.
I came to the study of violence because I was yearning to make sense of the messiness, the violence that unrolls its arms to every corner of our being, spreading its fingers and slowly enveloping us into its bounds. Violence is our mother tongue, it’s how we speak and communicate domination. It is the medium, the arm of domination, its eyes and ears on our earthly, material plane. I see violence as antithetical to freedom. Indeed then, the fight for liberation from domination demands the fight against violence; my hope is that in unsettling the violences we have become settled to, we are able to settle in free, liberatory worlds.
My creative and consultancy work stems from my radical imagination and cultivation of new worlds without violence’s suffocating bonds, without its hold on our neck. This longing incites one of my current research interests, where I work to uncover how black and brown female bodies are messily moulded and slowly assembled as violable, to be had, taken, hurt. I part company with the dominant VAW (violence against women) apparatus and instead locate violence as a production, an ongoing, incomplete process; for visible in the belly of the overly theorized beast enacting the act of sexual violence, is indeed this slow making that evokes and implants racialized female bodies as unruly, ravageable whores. To make sense of such a violence, I am grappling and in fight with how cultural demons erect women of colour as rapeable things.
As someone who spends much of my time in deep sessions and states of creation, I am concerned with how I can put our feelings into words, reconcile our emotions with prose, poetry, art, probe and thread repair into our granular, everyday movements, grasp onto theory as a means to express what our bodies have known for centuries. I am a creative whose acts and emotions of creation remain multiple, from the mundane of growing my hair and raising my dog to the infinite of writing, prosing, and poeticizing. I look upon creation as the antithesis of destruction, and creation as the parallel excavation of violence. in the act of one, i choose to forego, or at least lessen, the other.
Others ‘things’ that may open up some more about me:
– I hope my writing conjures imagery that captivates, lingers for centuries to come.
– My work is like an ocean, I send some waves out, they come back, crash, lock horns with one another, devilishly merge, they are sent back my way, they ripple, riptides form. My work is in constant struggle and emotion with its multiple moving parts.
– I use my stories, our stories, as entry points to facilitate conversation with survivors as well as those exercising violence (all of us in varying extents) on its mutilation. The poet in me likes short, non-lengthy pieces—to be quick and readable so to come back to—not like academic articles whose abstract is enough. I write and speak quickly, viciously at times, I demand much from you, from us all.
– Feminists urge a whole new way of imagining and organizing worlds without domination and violence. I similarly structure my everyday movement in a feminist way, asking: how do I breathe liberation? Invite freedom in my touch? Absorb the floods of restoration? Mimic the sounds of justice? How do I practice living as a practice of dismantling domination and evoking freedom?
– I speak in metaphors and allegories because that is how I live my life. they allow me to lean into the contradictions of our world, embracing obscurity and complexities as vessels for possibilities to become.
– I am concerned with how we can build a culture of repair, healing; where grief and struggle, pain are embraced and grappled with so as to ignite liberation.
– Much of my work is like a collage, taking what’s on my mind and splattering it out in its complexity and beautiful contradictions onto an external artifact.
– I practice language and theory as a site of contestation, locus of struggle, arena for liberation and domination to mingle at once.
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